If only I could sit a water spider on my face

I have some stuff coming up that makes me feel nervous, discussions, meetings etc... that I would rather hide from then deal with...but...part of being successful and/or being a grown-up is conquering fear...I have learned over the years that I must not let fears shut me down...I try to do this (not always successfully).

In fact while I was blogging this I stopped called my lawyer and asked for some advice on how to proceed....now back to fear...lots of things scare me....spiders scare the poop out of me...I was trying to brush a small one of the ceiling in my studio and it feel, I screamed and jumped to the other side...the spider was no bigger then my baby finger nail....a little silly I know...

Friday night in bed I was reading a yoga mag and the article was about dropping in to wheel pose backward from standing....yikes I thought...it suggested you start by walking down a wall with your hands into the back bend...Saturday I shared this fear and the article with some students....one offered to spot me...my heart started to race, who says yoga is not a cardio workout.....sweat came up on my brow...okay I said lets try. I was about a foot from the ground and I froze... I couldn't go any farther my mind was panicking....

Sunday I conquered a different very difficult pose, from headstand you drop your legs to a 90 degree angle and hold, it takes tremendous strength to hold this pose, but I manager to hold it for about a minutes...I was excited...another limit pused. I dared wheel again and this time walked all the way down the wall, I hestite partway down and then pushed past it.

My first yoga teacher used to tell me that once I got over fear in a posture that teh courage would manifest in other areas of my life....I look forward to this...maybe one day I will be able to let a water spider sit on my face for 30 seconds... eh Misty...
I am still feeling sick from the picture.

Food Today
Breakfast - peanut butter and jam on whole wheat....desperate for groceries.
Lunch - spinach salad with some grated feta and organic olive oil as a dressing
Beef tenderloin - 2 oz sauteed with mushrooms, carrot slivers, bean sprouts and soy sauce.
Dinner - protien shake, spinach salad
Snack - cereal