Union

Inner peace comes from union, for me it is union with this amazing planet we live on and it's inhabitants and union with the divine consciousnesses that we are all made of.

When I am not in union I am restless. Restlessness in me can manifest in many ways, I can overeat or become irritable, or more typically I begin to feel trapped,  I want to run away. I dream of living at a yoga school in Thailand or living on the edge of a beautiful Canadian lake surrounded by great trees.

Yet I have learned in my 50 years of life that you can't run away, one of my favorite expressions is
"wherever I go, there I am".

As a child I ran away often, at least twice a month, crying my eyes out I would head off towards Kingston Rd, invariably I would realize that I had no where to go, and I would return home out of frustration, swearing that next time I was going to really do it. .I felt like a failure for not having the courage to just go, yet at 10 or 11 years of age, my choices were limited. My parents never knew how often I ran away, being gone 10 minutes did not cause them any concern.

In my first marriage I dreamed of being taken away by a tall handsome stranger (or a rich older man), hopefully with money so I wouldn't have to work so hard or clean so much. This is a common female dream.

While sometimes I may breifly dritt into this place it is rare and at best fleeting.

Lately I have felt great inner peace and really connected to the people in my life. My Mom dropped in and I was overwhelmed with love for her. I saw a picture of my step dad holding his newest great grandchild and my eyes watered out of love. My father is so happy and has met someone who is crazy about him and my heart dances with joy for them both. My husband came home from work today and he looked so handsome, I threw myself in his arms and told him how much I loved him. My brother reached out and stroked his wife's arm and in that moment I was so glad that he had someone to love. A friend kisses her son in front of me and I smile because I felt lucky to have shared that moment with them. I threw a tennis ball across the room for my dog to fetch over and over again we both felt happy. Watching the kids do yoga at the Harvest Festival 6k made all the hard work of opening this studio feel so worthwhile, have Teri by my side helping me was awesome too. Teaching yoga to new yogini's and laughing over the fart story one more time made me smile as I recalled their laughter.

I could go on and on but I guess that today I am glad I am where I am, I am also very glad that this life of mine has become so full of truly amazing people. So Namaste to you all and I love you.